Life Sucks, Once Again...

Ya know what I don't understand? My mom keeps bitching at me to go out and make some girl friends and so when I do she dicks my plans over and makes me look like I'm blowing everyone off. For example, tonight I was supposed to go out with a whole group of my friends for Laura's 18th birthday and she won't let me because the roads are WET. They're not snowy, icy, no they're fucking WET because it's just RAINING and she's like "oh but they'll freeze and you'll die..." Trust me, bitch, I'm not lucky enough to die. God damnit she pisses me off....

On the good side, I have had enough free time to get my tear-drop effect to work again so now everything's okay with that. *Rolls eyes* Oh yay, my only friend- the computer.

What a fucking shitty life.

Bye Bye, Spring Break....

Oh yeah, it's official, we have like 1 day and a weekend for spring break now cuz guess what? School was cancelled again today. They have NEVER in the history of my 13 years at that school cancelled it this much ((except in 1993 when we had a blizzard))...but this is nowhere near a blizzard. Sure the whole world around us is just one solid sheet of ice, but oh well, I guess I really didn't want to have school today anyhow, so it's all right.

*Yawns* I'm really really bored, but at least I'm here by myself. There's nothing worse than having a day off from school and someone is home with me and they keep annoying the shit out of me, ya know, making me get up early and such. Haha, yeah it's 12:30 in the afternoon and I just got up...lol

CALLING ALL DREAM ANALYZING-PEOPLE:
I had the weirdest dream last night. It was about me and my friends Kayt, Laura, Melissa, and Shannon...and we were all getting ready to go to prom. Well, for some reason, we skipped our hair appointments and such and didn't even get dressed until we got to the school. It was really hott and humid that day and we were all sweaty and un-done up, and no one had anything on them. No purse, no camera, no makeup, no deodorant...nothing. And our dates came separately from us...in a pick up truck. But it wasn't just us doing this- like everyone that went to prom was getting dressed in the auditorium and gym and doing their own hair and stuff- and they had like a billion towncars (1 per couple) to take us down to Heinz Field...I dunno, and a bunch of random people were there - the librarian at our school, a few people from my church, just random people that I guess could've been chaperones, but they appeared to be going there because it was "their prom" and stuff...odd...

HmMm...it seems as though I need a shower. Mike's coming over after 1 and we're going to lunch and then tonight I'm probably going out to dinner with Kayt, Laura, Melissa, Chris, and Matt....that'll be fun...*smiles* Later!

OOO TEMPLATE!!

Czech out my kick ass template...*thanks to Aimee* for making it all possible. For some reason though, with this template, the tear-drop effect isn't working right, so I'm going to have to tweak it to get it to work. No problem though, I'm starting to get the hang of this thing.

I didn't go to school today due to sickness from a headache ((again)). I started feeling a little bit better though and my mom dragged me to get my prom dress fitted so they can start the alterations. It was kinda fun but it took forever cuz there's like 8 layers to it. *Yeah, it's slightly poofy* Then I went to the grocery store with my mom to get some veggie burgers- cuz I'm vegetarian now. It's fun! They have just about everything for vegetarians- hot dogs, "chicken" fingers, burgers- all made out of veggies. It's nice.

When we finally got home, Mike was there. It was a very pleasant surprise- he had called off. Soo we spent all evening together and I really enjoyed it. I needed that extra day with him....*smiles*

Hmm...I think that's about it...the weather is getting increasingly bad, so who knows what the school situation is going to be tomorrow....let's hope for none of it....

New Backgrounds and HTML Coding...

As you can see, I took the demonic angel off my background and started experimenting with paintshop pro and pictures of equally depressing things. I personally enjoy this picture because it represents a darker sense of what it is to cry. It shows the human characteristics in a vampire (the ability to cry) and although a vampire is known for its ruthless acts, the vulnerability shown by this picture really makes me think. Everyone is weak at some point, everyone has cried....the beauty of this, I believe is demonstrated in this picture. Besides, it's a nice change...and I'm waiting for Aimee & Kayt to make me a template, so I guess this'll work out in the meantime....

So I'm learning HTML. I think I'm coming along great, considering I started yesterday and I already made my first program *see the tears falling on my blog*. Perfect with my new theme of "The Tears Of Demonic Innocence". I love it!! I'm so excited, eventually, I'll be either on my own site or be hosted on someone else's site, and I won't have to rely on the motime things to do the HTML for me. Although, I'm getting the hang of templates. Not quite publishing material just yet, but we'll see.

I'm going to go lay down now, my head is killing me....

Man Oh Man Tonight Was Fun....

Michael came over at like 3:30 ish and we went to Cranberry to do a little shopping. We ended up at Best Buy first. Damn I love that store, LoL...I got a set of 4 cd's that are interior design software things, I've been playing with them for like an hour now, and they're real kick ass. Gotta love it, they were only $15 for all 4!! I dunno, I was pretty happy about that, considering that's what I'm going to go to college for in the fall...Hmm, and after Best Buy, we went to Quaker Steak and Lube for dinner *all you can eat wing night*...We actually didn't eat as much as we usually do, but I think that had to do with the fact that neither of us were really in the mood for chicken, although we didn't realize that until after we were already there. Helpful, huh? We left there and went to the dollar tree, the best store EVER created. LOL. Got some scrap-booking stuff, it's cheap there and that makes me happy. I'm making my mom a scrap-book of my life as a mother's day/graduation present...I dunno, I figure she's put up with me these past 13 years in that god-forsaken school, she deserves a little something too...and trust me, I've been working my ass off on that scrap-book. I think she'll like it though. Anyway, back to tonight...after the dollar store, we went back to my house and played mario for like 2 hours...that was fun...and then we cuddled and watched tv for another 2 hours or so. Time seemed to go slow, which was definitely a good thing in this case. I love spending time with him, and it seems like we never really get to anymore, with his job and all...*sigh* oh well, not his fault...

But yeah, tonight was great.

I think that's about it for now, I'll write again later!

Ohh Another Snow-Day....

Yup, it's definitely another snow-day for me. It was raining ice and sleet last night and apparently it made enough difference to have our school cancelled for the day...*lucky us*...

I'm working on learning HTML and FTP so I can buy a web domain, I dunno, ever since Kayt did it, it seems so appealing to me. I've been thinking about doing it for a while, but since I really don't know too much HTML, it's hard to do that. I think maybe I'll go to Barnes and Noble and get a book on HTML, maybe that'll help. I dunno...with as many snow days as we've been having, maybe it'll do me good to learn a marketable skill...LOL..

Michael didn't call me last night, apparently he tried and couldn't get through because VERIZON SUCKS. So I was up until 3:30 am biting off my nails and shaking because I thought he was dead, and then I finally got ahold of him on AIM. ((THANKFULLY)) He's alive and fine by the way....

*Twitch* I'm so bored...I think I'll go take a shower....

That's all for now, kidds.....

No School For Me...

*Ugh* I can't write for long, but I didn't go to school today, due to the fact that I couldn't move my neck and I had a 103.4 temperature...*sniffles* yeah I'm not doing too hott...oh well, what can ya do?

Hope all is well with e'eryone else!

Booooooredom....

Okay, since I'm stuck here all alone, I think I'll update you on today and yesterday.

Yesterday, Michael and I celebrated our 1 year 7 month anniversary that is actually today due to the fact that he had to work today. He picked me up in the morning and brought me to breakfast and then gave me the most wonderful present- a whole bunch of beautiful pictures of me and him, that I had almost forgotten about. Then we did homework together and headed out to go to dinner. We went to the Olive Garden, which is a very special place for us, it's where we had our first BIG date, on our 1 month anniversary, and although I'd known him for years prior to that night, I was more nervous that you could ever imagine. We had an hour long wait or so, but it was all worth it in the end. He got chicken alfredo with a coke, and I got cheese ravioli with an orange beverage that normally comes with alcohol but I asked for it without any since I'm under age. I still ended up with an alcoholic one and by the time the meal was over, I was preetttty close to drunk. (Kayt and Laura know how little it takes to get me there )...so then we went to Ross Park Mall and I tried to maneuver around the mall all tipsy...haha that was funnn....

Today, I got up and went to church, then mom and I went to breakfast at Kountry Kitchen, then it was off to go shopping. Kohl's was having a huge ass sale (hehe ASS-SALE) and I got some pants and shirts...hehe and really cute undies......then we went to Linens & Things to get mom a blanket, then to TJ MAXX where I got more pants....*sigh* It was a good day over-all.

Now I'm waiting for Mike to call so we can go eat and I can retrieve my belongings from his house....

5 Months Seems Like Forever.....

But it's really not. Sadly, I have come to the realization *yes, it 100% sunk in now* that in 5 months, the people that matter most in my life and I will be coming to a separation. Sure, we'll talk on AIM occasionally, but the only true things to talk about will be memories. Some people are going to college together like Kayt and Laura, Erica and Manda....but then others, like me, will be going alone, to room with complete strangers. It's hard and rather sad to go through this....because I know after June 4, 2004, my life will change forever. I will change forever. My daily routine will be gone and my comfort zone will be abolished. I'm scared, and excited, but most of all sad.

I don't want to lose the people that I hang out with, and as much as we say "we'll always be friends" the reality is that the odds aren't very much in our favor. I'm excited to meet new people and have new experiences, and finally to be an adult, but with that fades the friendships and memories of the past. I'm so scared that one day, I won't even recognize my old friends anymore. *sigh*

I guess in all of this though, there is a light. No matter what, the people I am friends with now will always be a part of me- because even though I may turn into a different person, without them first shaping me, I wouldn't be who I'm going to be...if that makes sense.

Oh well, I gotta run....**SHOPPING TIME**

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, MICHAEL! I LOVE YOU!