Yess, my precioussssss.....

Ahh! That damn Hobbit book is taking over my mind! *Ugh* I have to read it for British Literature and everytime I open the book I just want to shoot myself in the face....it is the most drawn out, long, boring, dry piece of shit literature I have ever encountered in my life. And I read. A lot.

HmMm...what happened today? Let's see here....oh yeah, we finally had a full day of school (7:34 am - 2:29 pm), although of all days, T O D A Y has been the coldest all week. At noon (the hottest part of the day), it was 4 degrees fahrenheit, with a windchill of -15 degrees, making it feel as though it was close to 20 below zero. And they didn't even give us a damn 2 hour delay. *Bleh* Which reminds me, does anyone else from Seneca remember in like 2nd grade how they gave us a 3 hour delay??? Why don't they do that anymore? L O L

As far as school went, it was long, boring, and highly uneventful. I think the highlight of my day was coming home to find Michael at my busstop, there to save me from the infinite cold.

Tonight was really lame too. I went to dinner with my mother and then we went to Rite Aid. That was only so I could talk to Shannon and get hair dye...yeah, it's sad, I'm only 17.5 years old and I'm already going gray. I was actually planning on stopping the whole dyeing my hair thing, but now I am going gray, so I have not many options. Well, I suppose I could just let it go gray, but I don't think I want to go to college with gray hair. Not my big thing in life, thanks. *sigh* Mike's going gray too. Sure, he's close to 20, but by the time we get married, we'll look like we're 80! Haha, just my luck.

Weeeeeellllll.....I guess I better go wash the dye outta my hair before it seeps into my head and kills the few brain cells I have left....

OoOo OoOo, and just for your entertainment purposes, here's a picture of my dog, Snoopy that I took with my new digi cam:



























Cute, huh?

Oh The Boredom Of It All....

Yeah, I finally realized that I can use more than 5 colors to type an entry in and now I'm loving the colors. LOL. If you look at all my other entries (with the exception of the past few days) everything's been in like red and blue. Oh but ladies and gentlemen, I have discovered the GREENS too! Haha....

Today got a lot better when I got home...school just has a way of putting me in a bad mood. Thank God it's my last year at Seneca. It's the worst place, ever. And if you'd like to argue that point, try me, I can guarantee that it's much worse than any place you've ever been. Which reminds me....

Thiis is what someone created in light of our school. Yes, the actual architecture for the school was based off of one made for a prison. This is the actual sign in front of our buildings (except the "federal prison" part says "High School" in reality).... But if we make things like this, just imagine the horror of it all! LOL...

Yeah, well I'm bored, but I really have nothing else to say/do...so I guess I'm gonna go...
--Amy

I knew today would be bad when....

When I woke up this morning, we had a 2 hr delay. That's all well and good, meaning I didn't have to get up til 8 and school starts at 9:30 am. Yay. Wrong. I was still running late and slipped on ice on the way to the busstop. When I got to school, I realized that I had left my keys in my room, so thankfully Heather had her cell phone and I called home. The rest of the day was just bad things. Lunch came around and my entire lunch table abandoned me...boy was that fun...except for Chris. *Thanks Chris*

Up until now I thought that it'd be bad going to college and not knowing anyone....but after today and seeing how cliques can hurt people, I can't WAIT to get away from that shit....

*FINALLY* We had school....

Okay, so we had a 2 hr delay, but getting out of the house is getting out of the house....*grins*

Kayt came back to school today....that was a wonderful thing...I missed her soo much! And then today after school, we contemplated slug sex together, that too was beautiful. LoL! *sigh* life is good.

There's this guy at school. He used to be my friend, but lately he's been wanting to be much more, and I don't particularly like it. [He'll remain nameless throughout this entry.] I started hanging out with him a few years ago at school and it was okay, everything was going well. He was in relationships before and I helped him with them cuz for some reason, he's not the best at keeping relationships or finding people that keep him interested (or stay interested in him). As of late, he has been in this relationship and is completely miserable...and is basically only in that relationship because he feels as though he can't get anyone else to be in a relationship with him. He's been unnaturally close to me recently, and has expressed thoughts of being in a relationship - namely - marriage with me, even though he knows about my future plans with Michael. *To get married*. I must admit, at first I thought it was a joke, and then I found it flattering, but now I'm highly uncomfortable with it, and if this behavior persists, I don't know how I'm going to react. It's rather confusing..but mostly irritating....the worst part? He's ultra sensitive so if I try to express my feelings on it, he'll get really upset and most likely never talk to me again....*What Do I Do?!*

There's a similar situation with that Ken guy at church. He's been getting creepier and creepier. I just got done reading this novel about a stalker and how this guy is obsessed with this girl and eventually tries to kill her boyfriend, Mike...*her name is Julie in the novel, but she reminds me so much of me, it's scary, oh and her boyfriend is Mike...* And Ken kinda reminds me of Richard. *The Stalker*...It's just that he's un-necessarily nice and that freaks me out with anyone, but guys in particular. Not to mention, he just about killed me in the middle of choir practice a few weeks back because I'm wearing a ring that Michael got me. Yes, it's a promise ring (aka pre-engagement)...but still, no need to get hostile:
Me: (sitting in a pew, minding my own business)
Ken: (walks up to me, looks as though he's about to say something nice, glances at my hand)
Me: ????
Ken: "What is this?! (Points to my hand) I don't talk to you for 2 weeks and you have the nerve to go off and get engaged to another man????!!!"
*At this point, he's S C R E A M I N G in the middle of the sanctuary of my church...*
Me: (confused and bewildered) "Uhh...uhh..."
Ken: "God, can't you just stop toying with my emotions?...."
The following Sunday before church, he approached me again, this time a little nicer, but still rather creepy:
Ken: "Amy, can we talk?"
Me: "Uh, yeah sure...what do you need?"
Ken: "I'd like to apologize for what I said on Wednesday. It's just....just so hard to see the woman you're in love with become engaged to another...oh you know...well, actually, I suppose you don't..."
(Increasing hostility in tone)
Me: "Oh, it's okay...I didn't mean to hurt you...."
Ken: (screams) "I JUST CAN'T DO THIS, I'M SORRY!"
(Leaves in almost a jogging pace)
-Yeah, c-r-e-e-p-y. It's like, hold up there, killer, I didn't mean to get your fur in a bunch. LoL...geez, what's wrong with people today?....

*sigh*

Sometimes, when I'm feeling upset, or emotional, full of any emotion really...I write things, songs, poetry, it doesn't matter....

Tonight I wrote a song for Michael. This past week has been really hard for the two of us, not because of strain in our relationship. If anything, we're doing better than ever...but this has a lot to do with outside things, things we can't control...and he's been 110% there for me. Without his support, I wouldn't have been able to make it through this...

This song is called "Angel In Disguise"

[gently, slightly,
the breeze plays upon my face
i open my eyes to a distant glow
realizing i'm looking at you]

you stir as you sleep
a sigh you breathe
the glow becomes stronger
and i know

you're an angel in disguise,
you only show it when you're sleeping
the only time you let down your guard
is now
you're an angel in disguise,
to help me start the healing...
you're an angel, my angel, in disguise....

your kindess made me question before
[no man on earth could be this understanding]
your arms- they're always open
your love is always burning
i never thought it possible
but i know

you're an angel in disguise,
you only show it when you're sleeping
the only time you let down your guard
is now
you're an angel in disguise,
to help me start the healing...
you're an angel, my angel in disguise....

unconditional you've shown me
a love that's never ending
a friendship full of passion
a life that's worth living
you made me who i am
and that's who i want to be
i only question this-
why did you choose me?

[you're an angel in disguise,
you only show it when you're sleeping
you're my angel in disguise,
sometimes i think i'm dreaming]

you're an angel in disguise,
you only show it when you're sleeping
the only time you let down your guard
is now
you're an angel in disguise,
to help me start the healing...
you're an angel, my angel in disguise....

**Michael- I whole-heartedly believe that you are an angel sent from heaven just for me. How or why, I will probably never know. I just want you to realize how much you really mean to me...and that I appreciate every little thing you've done for me, not only this past week...but as long as I've known you. You're my best friend in the entire world, and I don't know what I'd do without you...I love you, I always have and I always will....**

Y U C K: Snow Day, Take 2

I don't want to be stuck here, cooped up in this house again for the second consecutive day. I feel like I'm being punished for something, even though I'm not...I mean, I was actually FORCED by self-boredom to clean my room (which wasn't necessarily a bad thing) but still, come on!

Ugh, the snow just keeps falling...and falling...and falling....
         Don't get me wrong, I LOVE snow, but it's just preventing me from doing anything/going anywhere, and it's getting old...on the other hand, I think Mike's coming over, which'll be fun...maybe to sled a little...or just to snuggle...mMmMm...fun!

Welllll, I guess I better go get a shower and all that fun stuff....

Wow, sorry I haven't written in like almost a week, but I've been having serious computer problems...*sigh*

My life has been fairly uneventful though, so don't worry, you really haven't missed much. On Friday, I went to Pittsburgh to hang out with Mike and Mark *our mutual friend*. We went to all sorts of places...music stores, mostly. We first went to Eides in the strip district, that was a good time. If you ever get a chance to go there, I suggest it, really I do. It's all cd's and tee-shirts, ya know, band stuff on the first floor, the second floor is all movies and books, and the basement is every comic book you could ever imagine - accompanied by every action figure ever made. It is definitely a fun place. Then we ended up in the South-Side at a store called Slackers. Interesting store. Right before we went in, this big black guy stopped us to talk to us...he was so funny. He went to shake Mark's hand, but Mark walked away too quickly, so I shook it instead...LOL...good times, good times. By the time we actually got home (around 11), the streets were completely covered in snow. We had to drive in 4 wheel drive the entire way home...that was fun though.

Mike ended up spending the night that night and we went up to SRU on Saturday to study together. *Smiles*

Sunday was a bore, church and that was about it.

Today, I had no school- it was cancelled due to "inclement weather" so it said on our school's tv channel. Not that I'm complaining. I just hope the make-up day isn't the Monday after Valentine's Day here in a few weeks. We always have that day off, and there better be no exception this year!

That's about it for now....I'll probably be writing again frequently, now that my computer seems to have calmed down a bit..LOL...

Okay, 2 fairly amusing things happened today....

Fairly Amusing Thing # 1- I caught someone in the biggest lie I have ever heard. This stupid girl who's like best friends with a teacher lied to me and said she didn't turn someone in for something....when EVERYONE knows it's true and she's already admitted it to other people. I dunno, I just find it amusing because she pretends to be this uptight goody-goody Christian girl that wouldn't do anything and then she lies about that...oh and she cheats on her boyfriend.

Fairly Amusing Thing #2- I was walking to the bus stop and I hear this thumping. Well, I look down on the ground and see this rabbit. It sees me looking at it and starts getting spastic. Next thing I know the damn rabbit takes off and *WHAM* smacks head first into my shin. Now, rabbits may look all cute and cuddly when they are just sitting there, but when they're going like 34802802340 miles an hour into your leg, you tend to notice.

Other than that, today was highly uneventful.
LOL

Oh so happy once again....(well aside from some underlying factors)....

Yesterday was a day off and today was a half day at school....*sigh* life is good. I'm really looking forward to the start of a new semester (tomorrow)...new classes, new faces, and yet some stay the same. It's a beautiful thing, really.

This 3 day weekend has been wonderful. It started on Friday when I went to Eat 'n Park with Jesse and Erica and then Saturday I fully described a few entries ago...Sunday was all right, rather pointless, but fun nonetheless...and Sunday night I spent the night at Mike's and we went to the mall all day on Monday. (And if you know me at all, you know I'm a mall-a-holic...I could LIVE at a mall and be happy forever)

Tonight'll be interesting. I Shannon just decided that I'm on costume crew with her for the all-school musical, *State Fair*, so I guess I'm doing that. It might be a good thing though- teach me a little independence- and since I can't even stand in a lunch line alone, that might just be a good thing. It'll also fill my time up so I don't have to sit around and think about how much I miss Mike when he's working and such. See? Not necessarily bad things, right?

OoOo OoOo, I think I also landed a job for the summer- and it's only a summer job, so I won't have to worry about quitting during the school year (for college in the fall) ! Yeah, it's painting and maintenence, but I'll be getting paid about $8 and hour and working from 7-3 all week and no weekends. Basically like going to school but getting paid for it! AND it won't be the same thing every day....*Grins* Just the kind of job I've been looking for!

*sigh* Oh yes, life is very, V E R Y good right now...
--Amy

I need to let this out. And to anyone that this pertains to, consider this your warning.

I don't entirely know what it is that makes me hate people so much, but I do know that malicious intent and hypocrisy are two of the major contributing factors. I cannot stand when someone says one thing and goes and directly does the complete opposite. Or when someone takes delight in ruining someone else's life for no apparent reason. This seems to be happening a lot as of recent, and quite frankly it's obnoxious. 

I can't honestly say that I've ever wanted to be close friends with a teacher. Now, in my opinion, a "teacher" is someone who does just that- teach. It's more than a title, it's a profession, and when in the educational setting, that is the one and only thing that a TEACHER should be to a student. A student-teacher relationship should consist of questions and answers about the particular specialty of that teacher's knowledge. For example, a history teacher should be asked about the Civil War, and a band teacher about music. Nothing more, nothing less. Unfortunately, however, in today's LIBERAL society, where everyone has to feel good and no one's self esteem can be let down (which is another tragedy in my opinion), teachers often forget that they are there to teach and only to teach. This is when the student-teacher relationship has been crossed to a closer, more intimate thing, which should not ever happen. When it does happen, and believe me, it does, it only results in favoritism, and the ruination of innocent people's lives. Furthermore, when such an incident occurs, I am appauled at the fact that the teachers' union will cover for any teacher that crosses that line of respect, thus making it next to impossible for any student to win an argument that was precipitated by the teacher and their now very close student friend.

This is what makes me hate people, and especially people involved in any education system.

You cannot trust a single soul in a place where you're supposedly safe from all harm- school. You cannot exercise your constitutional rights of freedom of speech and the right to practice whatever religion you so choose. You cannot speak your mind, you cannot assemble peacefully- and, in some places, you can't even pledge your loyalty to your own country. It makes me sick to see an education system like America once had go down the drain all because teachers no longer realize that their role should be authority, not friend.

I know someone out there knows exactly what I am talking about and whom I am referring to. To anyone who is "friends" with a teacher while still being that teacher's pupil: What you are doing is very, very wrong. I cannot express my extreme demise for such behavior, but know this. What you have done, are doing, and will do to people that you know, and some that you do not because of your relationship with a teacher will make you the most hated amongst your peers. You will then have to stew in your own anguish as all other students turn their backs on you. Enjoy your friendly time while you can because that teacher is not always going to be there for you, and that school building won't always be your safe-house. Do not walk alone, do not ever think that you are safe. As sure as you become comfortable, someone will do to you what you have already done to ruin someone else's life.

Today was a well-deserved day of NOTHINGNESS (<--is that even a word?!):

  Michael came over at about 11 am, and we went out to breakfast with his parents at Kountry Kitchen (as usual on a Saturday). After that, Mike and I headed up to his dorm, where I met his roomate, Steve. He says my name so cool in his Australian accent: "I-ME" is how he says it, LOL...we ended up eating at Rocky's for a snack...and then headed back down to Cranberry.
  Boy did the roads suck. Something good came of that though...well, I'm not sure if it's good or bad, but I definitely went from scared to death of sliding in a vehicle to addicted to that adrenaline rush when it happens. [Good=I'm not scared, Bad=I LIKE that feeling] 
  On the way to Cranberry, we stopped at Burger King to get coffee...and I ran into Heather. She wasn't on the clock yet and wanted me to go with her to get gas cuz she was scared of the shitty roads, so I said yeah, and me and her went to get gas real quick. Mike sat in BK and ate pie, so I think he was happy. After we got back, Mike and I left and Heather started work...
  Eventually, we ended up back at Mike's house...and watched "Enough" starring Jennifer Lopez, which is actually good. (And I definitely hate J-Lo, so you gotta know it must actually be good, hehe)....
   Shortly after that, we left and came back to my house. Which is when the fun began. Picture it...it's sleeting at 10:30 pm. It's pitch-black and there's like a foot of snow on the ground....PACKING SNOW. Oh yes, snowball fight. No, this wasn't just a fight. It was a snowball WAR. I hadn't ever had a snowball fight like that before. This was dodge under snow-covered vehicles, take cheap shots, all-out war-fare going on here. And the best part is, we had to be silent because it was so late. Man did I get my ass kicked. I was doing real good at the dodging part until he got one lucky shot in....smacked me right in the chest...and it went downhill from there. This went on for about 1/2 an hour and then we were so exhausted from trying to run/throw in the heavy snow that we came inside and just layed down for an hour. But damn, that was fun!
  So yeah, that was my day in a nutshell...(how did it get into this nutshell?!) Haha, sorry, I had to...
--Amy

Thank God It's Friday....

After such a long week of ups and (mostly) downs, I'm so happy it's Friday. I'm so sick of the drama and bullshit...the best part is- this is a 3 day weekend. Well, 3 and 1/2 day weekend...*sigh of relief* I'm just emotionally and physically drained....and a break is VERY well-deserved.

Haha, apparently Mike got his Australian roomate yesterday. The kid seems to be crazy. His name is Steve and he's only seen snow one time before this. He fucking brought a surf board to SRU with him. -There's like 3 inches of snow on the ground, and the nearest ocean is HOURS away in another state- And this kid brings a surf board. Haha, what a weird-ass.

I'm in high spirits for the moment, and let's hope it stays that way all weekend. I'm going shopping for jeans and shoes with mom sometime here pretty soon, so I guess I'm gonna go get a shower and get ready....
--Amy 

*Sigh* I just get so sick of the high school drama and bullshit....I just have to keep telling myself..."This time next year, you'll be in college, away from all this crap..." And God, I can't wait...

I just get so fed up with listening to the "he said, she said" stuff. Especially when it comes to the teachers. Ya know, back in the day, teachers and students had nothing to do with one another outside of the classroom, which is the way it should have remained. Now, students come to classes to visit the teachers and fratronize during periods of the day in which they do not have classes with particular teachers. Thus, making it much easier to become *teacher's pets* and making the favoritism even worse.

I wish just for once I could go back into the 60's or so, and see when teachers could beat a subordinate kid for acting up. I wish I could go back and see when respect was still around, when authoritative figures were that and only that. None of this "I'm friends with Mr. So and So" shit. There is a fine line between caring about your students and becoming their best friends, and this time, it has been crossed, and in this case, has caused a very close friend of mine much pain. This needs to be put to an end.

Does anyone else feel this way? Or am I all alone once again?.....

Okay, I guess I'll actually write right now...

I'm not entirely sure what posesses people to do the things they do. Why would you intentionally ruin someone's life; especially someone who you don't even know?! I just don't get the cruelty of the act, and I guess I never will.

*sigh* nothing overly great has been happening lately- to me or anyone else I know. I feel so bad for everyone, life's just not fair...this is such bullshit.

Well I hope everything is going okay with everyone else...

--Amy

I am more than angry right now. I can't really say why, but I might not be using my blog as much, at least for a while. I'm sorry...

                  I will be back though, I promise.

*BLEH* Today totally sucked. I ended up wearing a pint of apple juice (and later a pint of milk) and it looked like I pissed myself, and I had to walk around school all day like that. Also, I fell down an entire flight of stairs at school, and when I attempted going back up that flight, I fell UP them too. Then a whole bunch of bad stuff happened to my Kayt, but we won't get into that, and it really made me sad...and then I got smacked in the face with a door, shut my hand in my locker, had a headache, and got my arm scratched to hell by my own nails. *sigh* Definitely not my day.

Tonight was a bit better, not much though. The best part was that I spent it with Michael...he moved back to school today though, and that sucked. I also can't seem to find a ring in my size, which also sucks. We were both forced to eat dinner with his parents and their friends, and really, I just wasn't in the mood for being teased by old people...but I suffered through it anyhow...then I got something really sharp in my only functioning eye and it made me cry...and see all blurry. So yeah, I'm really not having a good day, in fact today is one of the worst days yet. Definitely the worst day of 2004 so far. Yeah, I realize it's only 2 weeks into the year, but still...how shitty is that!
--Amy

School was less that thrilling today...but I turned in my senior project paper...FOR GOOD. No more high school research papers again. EVER. *does a little dance*

Let's see here...I'm writing now because I probably won't have another minute to myself. I have to start homework here in like 2 minutes and then Shannon's coming over...and then I'm going to drag her with me to pick up an ink cartridge for my printer, then it'll be off to choir practice at 7...which means I'll be home around 8, but chances are that I'll more than likely have the majority of my homework to do then...*sigh* What a hectic night! (But fun all at the same time)

I guess I better go...I'll write more in-depth tomorrow, I promise!
Hope all is well with everyone!
--Amy

I stayed home today because I had the worst headache I've had yet, and I'm pretty sure it was a stress one...I'm starting to feel better though, so I guess that's a good thing, right?

I got my senior paper done, which is a wonderful thing, and I came up with the project I'm going to do to accompany it...I'm going to write an informational book on organ donation since I'm a good writer and my paper is about the education of the public about organ donation. Yes, it came to me while I was in the shower. I've been studying like madd for F I N A L S next week and my brain is soo fried...I HAVE to get good grades, I have to!

Friday, Mike moves back to SRU  (that's Slippery Rock University for those of you reading this that aren't from around here)....I don't want him to, I hate when he's away at college...and it's REALLY going to suck next year when I'm at La Roche. Thankfully though, neither of them are too far away....*sigh* I hate change, it's NOT a good thing. Other than that, right at this exact moment, I'm really laid back as far as the future goes, although I'm positive it'll change by the end of the night...

--Amy

*Ugh* Today was my first day back at hell *school*. It wasn't too bad except I came to the realization that mid-term exams are next week and I need to study like woah. That's all I'm going to be doing all week is studying...oh and that damn senior project...which is due Wednesday....

Michael picked me up from school today...that was a lot of fun! We went to Giant Eagle to return our rented video games and then to the dollar tree and petco for some other stuff, and then back to his house to play playstation for a while...after that we went out to dinner and to his work to meet up with our friend Mark. Well, Mark left early for a change and we were trying to catch up with him because everyone at Mike's work said that he was headed for Barnes and Noble...we ended up passing him and following him....we got to a redlight and he was the last car to make it through before it turned red, so we just assumed that we should follow the turnpike because that's the way he gets home. So we're going like 90 down the turnpike trying to catch up with someone that may or may not actually be on that particular road...headed toward Ellwood City (which is like 10 minutes from my house)...We passed about 308912308921390 people and still there was no sign of Mark. Frantically, we try to get through Ellwood as fast as we can...and it turns out that we never did catch up with him. But the stalking doesn't stop there! We stopped at a Burger King on Main Street in Ellwood to ask for a phone book....I looked up Mark's last name and the only one listed for Ellwood was on "Summit Avenue". We asked the kid that worked there (aka the burger~bitch) if he knew how to get to this Summit Ave. and he gave us directions. So we finally make it to this Summit Ave. and the house number we're looking for is 86. The closest thing to 86 is wayy over 300....yeah. So we called the number that went along with that address in the phone book. No answer. After about 20 minutes of stalking up and down this road, we finally decided to call it quits and find out for sure where Mark lives in case we ever feel the need to stalk him again.

*Yawns* Oh yeah, and after all that excitement, I'm going to bed! Goodnight everyone, I shall write again tomorrow (if I have time)....
--Amy

I've been thinking a lot about the future, and my decisions for the future....

What's gonna happen when things aren't the way they are right now anymore? This is it, today marks 5 months until graduation, and I just don't know. Did I make the right decision in not going to Boston University? Did I make the right decision in going into a major in which I know nothing? Am I doing the right thing by trying to salvage my broken relationships with people, when in 5 months it'll just be more people to miss?

I just want to skip over this part of my life and fast forward, just to see what it's like. If it's good, then I want to stay, if not, I want to go back so I can prevent that from happening...unfortunately, I can't really do that...

Trust me, it's not school I'm going to miss. It's not even the people at school...it's the assurance of what the next day will bring....it's the assurance that I won't lose the most important thing in my life....I'm so scared that things will all fall apart when I go away to school...although it's not that far, so much can happen in so little time...I have faith in this, it's just the uncertainty of the circumstance. I'm so scared, so so scared....

And it's odd too because we're talking about me here. Me, who's ready to get married and start a real life. Me, who's always been kind of independent and not overly social. Me, who's always the strong one....And here I am, scared to death, shaking everytime someone mentions the fact that after this year, it's a whole new life ahead. I wouldn't mind the fresh start and all....but I wouldn't mind staying like this for just a while longer....

5 months isn't that long from now....

Why am I being like this? It's so dumb....I know everything'll be okay, so why am I still thinking the things I'm thinking....?....

What a waste of a day....

I got up at noon (Michael's working)...Mom and I decided that we'd go shopping for pants cuz I'm in dire need of some decent jeans, I think I have like 3 pair that aren't completely gross. I ended up getting like 7 new shirts but no pants, lol...that's okay though, whatever.
I was supposed to go ice skating with Sarah tonight but I got this call...well a voicemail at least, in which she said "Hey Amy, uhh I feel bad but I totally forgot that I made plans with you 4 days ago and made other plans instead that I really can't break." Needless to say, we're not going skating tonight. I'm not so much pissed about not skating as I am about her forgetting. She says I'm her best friend and yet she forgets that we're supposed to do something?! What the hell is that all about?! And on top of that, she refused to keep the plans that she was supposed to have with me and instead did whatever else she is doing now. Heh, probably got a better offer from her boyfriend...*sigh* It's amazing how people can change...
Hmm what else happened? I got my nails filled and air brushed, they look really pretty so I'm happy about that I guess...that's really all I've done today...

Tomorrow's my last day of Christmas break, and then we really don't get any significant time off the rest of the year. Sure there's a day or two here and there but even for Easter we only get 3 days and a weekend...(Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and *I think* Monday)...*bleh* Which reminds me..I really should get working on that senior project piece of shit that I have to completely re-write before it's due on Wednesday...It's just finding the motivation to do it...oh wait, tomorrow's 5 months until graduation. Yup, there's my motif`.

I guess that's all for now, I think I'm gonna go grab something to eat because I'm really hungry since I haven't eaten yet today....
--Amy

Today was wonderful. Since our anniversary was on new year's day, Michael and I celebrated today...we were supposed to go to the Waterfront to see a movie and whatnot, but we ended up at the mall in Robinson all day, which was fine with me. He got like 43218902213 pairs of pants and some video games and he got me a face plate for my phone and we split the cost of an old-school nintendo system so we can reminisce and play cheesey pixelated video games. *Ahh, the finer things in life* I also bought myself two really pretty shirts  OoOo OoOo and we ate pizza in the food court..ya know, the kind where 1 slice is as big as your head...MmMm...Then we pissed around the mall for another 4 hours or so and went to a Chinese buffet in Moon for dinner...I'm so happy right now I could just explode!
.::Michael::. Thank you for the most wonderful day in the entire world, sweetheart! What a great way to start out another whole new year together

Really, I think that's all for now...I'm really tired and I have to work on that senior project bullshit tomorrow so I guess I'll go to bed soon...g'night!
--Amy

New Year's Eve was fun...I'll write about that later though, maybe tomorrow...right now I just want to vent...

Ya know, growing up, I lived with my mom and her two sisters (my aunts)...and I never really thought it was a bad thing. When other kids would be like "isn't that like having 3 mothers?" I'd just say "naw, it's really not that bad..." Guess what? It really IS that bad. I'm so fucking sick of never being able to be alone in my house anymore.

Up until a year or so ago, I shared a room with my mother, and I had more privacy then than I do now with my own room in a completely separate part of the house! It's really not my mom, she's totally cool and respects my privacy and all, but it's my fucking aunt Val that really gets me going. She'll barge into my room when Michael and I are watching tv or something and start talking as loud as she can about anything and everything and then she'll repeat the same damn thing over and over again, as if I was really that retarded and couldn't comprehend it the first time around. Oh and then she'll leave my door open so my 3 dogs just wander in randomly...and when I ask her to kindly remove them, she says "well why'd ya leave your door open?"  WHAT THE HELL?! It wasn't me that left the mother-loving thing open in the first place! *Sigh*

Oh oh, and then there's instances like tonight, when Michael and I wanted to talk ALONE and so when we couldn't have any "us" time in my room, we went outside on the back porch to talk...and who seems to have a reason to be out there at the same time but my aunt. She always uses MY puppy Brooke as a scapegoat to do basically whatever the fuck she wants around me...i.e. "The dog needed to go out"  was the reason that she just couldn't wait another 5 minutes to barge outside on us. And the thing that really ruffles my feathers is when Michael leaves or whatever, she comes into my room and tries to act all buddy-buddy with me. I'm seriously wondering what the shit could possibly be going through her head. I know for a fact she's jealous of Mike, and any 45 year old woman that is jealous of a 19 year old guy really needs some therapy in my opinion. She's jealous that I spend more time with him than I do with "the family". Umm, hello, I freakin' live here, I spend wayyyy too much time here! Besides, Michael is my future husband, he IS family, and she better get used to it, cuz it's gonna be that way forever.

Well now that I'm done with my little rambling of the night, I feel ever so much better. I guess I need to get some sleep...it's been a loong 2 days and tomorrow Michael & I are going to Pittsburgh to check out some possible prom stuff/maybe see a movie/go out to dinner...
--Amy

Happy 1 Year 6 Month Anniversary, Michael Daniel!!