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Sunday, November 30, 2003

Okay yeah, Saturday was a blast! Michael came to pick me up at 10-ish and we went to get breakfast at Kountry Kitchen as usual...so after that we went out to watch the Zelie Christmas Parade (aka Seneca Valley marching band walks thru Zelie)...I saw Sarah and the band for the first time this year, and they sounded wonderful. I yelled for Sarah and she gave me that "I'm going to kill you, you're embarassing me" look. Hey, what are friends for? 

After the parade, I went with Mike to Wal~Mart and then we went to Giant Eagle to get stuff for me to make dinner with...we saw Fred there and that's always fun. He's sucha great kid, we both love him to death...(also saw Josh Miller there but we don't like him as much lol...) Went back to Mike's house...I made dinner...salad, stuffed shells, garlic bread, and oreo pie....and we ate....then we went to Toys R Us to harrass our friend Mark who works there during the holiday season (and works with Mike as well)....and we ended up buying Monopoly and played it from 8-11 tonight. Needless to say, I've never won a game of Monopoly before this, and my perfect losing record still stands with just one more number to add to my losses. I was in the hole by -$200 and he had over $8,000 so yeah, you can imagine how bad of a slaughter it really was.

That brings me to now. It's 12:15 am on Sunday morning and I have to be up in a few hours to go to church...*blah* Nothing against church...they should just....not make it be so early on a Sunday morning. Eww and then afterwards I can't even come home and sleep because I have to run the Christmas play practice and then I have to come home and write my Senior Project paper.  I can't wait until Monday...it's the only day I'll have actually slept in on this vacation. Don't get me wrong, wonderful things have happened over this break....I'm just so drained I could pass out at any time regardless of where I am at the moment...and that, my friends, is definitely NOT healthy...

Ohhh well, time for bed now! G'night!
--Amy



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Friday, November 28, 2003

Before I forget....
THANK YOU MICHAEL FOR FINDING THE DEMONIC ANGEL PICTURE FOR MY WONDERFUL BLOG BACKGROUND! THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH!

I never thought I'd say this...but I'm really sick of shopping! Yes folks, that's right, I did the BLACK FRIDAY shopping thing today, and really, I doubt I'll ever do it again! Michael spent the night last night so we could get up at 5 am and make our way out to Wal~Mart...oh boy was that fun...Lol..no seriously, I really did have a good time after I got used to it...I'm just not one for the huge crowds..although I did get most of my Christmas shopping done

I broke my cell phone again Which makes me really sad..it still works and all but I think possibly it's just the face plate that's falling off. *I hope* so I'm gonna try to get it fixed. I think I am going to treat myself to a new one for Christmas anyhow...or try to get my mom to treat me to one because this one's being really retarded and everytime I so much as pick it up, it falls apart. (Although tonight I actually DROPPED it, and pretty hard at that...on tile flooring...) *sigh*

Well after such a day of hardcore shopping, I'm gonna hit the hay...tomorrow's gonna be another great day...I can't wait! (Too bad break's almost over)

--Amy

*LET IT SNOW*


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Thursday, November 27, 2003

The Top 10 Things I'm Thankful For (In No Particular Order):
1. My mom
2. Michael & His Great Family
3. My Wonderful Friends
4. My (Generally) Good Health
5. My House
6. My Dogs
7. My Car
8. My Education
9. The Fact That I'm Going To College In The Fall
10. God

Okay, so it's Thanksgiving, and I just woke up...*at 10 am*...lol...this is just about one of my favorite holidays. It's odd though, I like it because it's about family, and really I don't like mine all that much...at all.() I dunno...it's fun though, I think EVERYONE enjoys being able to eat and eat and eat without guilt...*at least until tomorrow lol* Annyway, I guess I'd better go get ready...it's gonna be a busy day...first I'm eating a turkey lunch (aka turkey dinner) here at my house with my family and Michael, and then Mike and I are taking dinner to our friend who is working by himself today, and then we're eating dinner at Michael's house...so it'll be a pretty run-run day....fun though.

Happy Thanksgiving, Everyone!











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Tuesday, November 25, 2003

Dude, czech it out....I totally have a demonic angel as my background now! Woohoo! (Thanx a bunch Joe!)

Today was loooong. It might have had something to do with the fact that I was up until oh, 4 o'clock this morning reading my math book and trying to understand the stupid shit we're doing so I could pass the test I had to take today. Tried my best on that damn thing, hope I passed.

Sadly, that's about the most exciting thing I have to say right now, so unless miraculously, my day gets a million times better, I'll write again tomorrow.

--Amy

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Monday, November 24, 2003

It seems as though the winter is setting in...today when I woke up and got ready to leave the house at 6 am, it was gorgeous..there wasn't a cloud in the sky and it was 55 degrees out...needless to say, when I came home at 3, it was spewing down snowy sleet stuff and now it's less than 30 degress and dropping. That's perfectly fine with me though, I love cold weather, and especially snow. It makes me want to curl up by a fire with a good comforter, a cup of hot beverage *insert beverage of choice here*, and snuggle up to someone...hmmm....if only I had a functioning fireplace, or knew someone who did...lol

It seems to me now that since the last time I wrote I haven't updated you on the whole situation of "Jay" and "Dana"...well since they had a fit about what I wrote, I'll candidly say that it was Kevin and Caitlin, the same two I've written about in past journals. They have a fit because I "broadcast their lives to people all over the world..." but I have news for them...people that know them already heard about the whole thing, and the people that didn't, wouldn't have known it was them. However, since they made such a huge production about it, I feel no remorse in saying that their real names are Kevin and Caitlin. End of story, I will no longer be writing about either one of them, no more time should be wasted on people that obviously are too stuck up each other's asses to realize that I was writing in my own journal about my own thoughts. I know, I know, I have some nerve huh? *oh the sarcasm*

I made a pretty pathetic attempt at making an html coded template for this journal thing. I'm working on it though (with a lot of help from my Connecticuitian friend, Joe) *thanks Joe!* who just happens to be a web designer...so he should know how to do this stuff right?...Not to mention he's a very gracious type of guy who is nice enough to take time out of his busy work schedule to help me out with this *thanks again, Joe*...MmMm, I've got some pretty damn great friends.

Talked to Jon tonight for the first time in what seems like ages. It was a pleasant convo, well as pleasant as a conversation on algebra could possibly be...he's like the most advanced person I know as far as math goes (Mike's a close second), but since Mike was at work, and I haven't talked to Jon in forever anyhow, I figured, hell...why not ask? As it turns out, Jon's so advanced that he never had to take Algebra...skipped right over that and dove into Calculus, so he couldn't help...but with the assistance of my brain and my book, I think I figured it all out juuuust fine <--that's a biiiiig accomplishment cuz well, I'm HIDEOUS in math...lol

Weeellllll, I guess that's about it for now, I'll write again tomorrow sometime...

--Amy

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Sunday, November 23, 2003

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Saturday, November 22, 2003

Let's mix it up a little with a completely new LAYOUT!

Okay so it's almost 10 am on a Saturday morning, and I don't have to be anywhere....so WHY AM I UP?! I guess I thought it was later than it is, and now I can't get back to sleep...*sigh* Oh well that happens I suppose.

The good news about this weekend is- although I didn't get to go to Clarion, I am getting to spend a lot of much needed time with Michael, which is wonderful, and I'm very excited. I can't do very much though, since I got my toenail removed, it's very hard to walk (and quite painful, too!) so I think we'll just be doing whatever....

I need to let something out...2 things, really I guess. So here goes.


Thing Numero Uno: This guy I know, let's call him "Jay" was going out with this girl, we'll call her "Dana". That was all well and good because Jay and Dana were really great friends and just decided to take it to the next level, if you will. Normally, I'd discourage that because things never seem to be right after your friendship turns into an intimate relationship, but ya know, I didn't want to be the one to ::rain:: on their parade. Soo, they dated for a while and things seemed to be going great....and then just out of the blue, he dumps her. No real reason. Now, he's notorious for just being like "Hey I'm having some personal issues, and I don't know what I really want in life..." Like every guy in the world couldn't come up with that one....I mean, that's basically what he said when he broke up with me a few years back...but that's not the point. The point is he broke Dana's heart, for no reason, without any warning, and since Dana and I are good friends it really, REALLY pisses me off. Sooooo in any event, the thing that really gets me going, is that she's too blind to see that he is just like that...she's not blaming him for a thing *so she claims* and I don't know why, but it bothers me. I feel bad for her because she can't see that it indeed IS his fault, and not that I'm all for the "blame game", when someone does something like that to you, "for no reason at all", you really gotta wonder....at least I do....


Thing Numero Dose: This guy I know, we'll call him "Dave" got out of a relationship with this girl that he claimed he was in love with. They were absolutely inseparable and they just did everything together...but then she realized that she was making a big mistake, and that there was someone she truly loved, and it wasn't him.
So when she backed out of the relationship, a loong time ago, she moved on to that man that she was madly in love with...they're still together...but now he's moved on to this girl named "Cora" and the only problem is....it's an internet romance. She lives in Tennessee, he lives in Pennsylvania...and he's planning on taking her to the Czech Republic as their first date. *NO JOKE*. Now I don't have a problem with internet relationships to the extent that they stay over the internet, and you don't mess around with that sort of thing while you're with someone...and up to this point, under my standards, what they're doing is fine. Cute love emails, late-night chats online...blah blah blah. I'm just worried that Dave is getting over his head and Cora's going to turn out to be some psycho-killer transexual and once they hit the Czech Reupublic, it'll be alllll over for Dave. I dunno, I guess maybe I'm worrying for nothing, Dave is an adult and so's Cora (so he/she says)....Maybe I'm a bit cynical because I'm scared something's really wrong with this picture...I just have one of those feelings, ya know? Or maybe I'm still bitter because my favorite cousin, Angela, ran off with some internet guy and now lives in Texas (well at least she did 5 years ago when she wrote the one and only letter I got from her after she left), now it's like she was never alive...her family completely disowned her. *sigh* I guess Dave has to do this for himself, but I'm just scared for him...I can't afford to have anymore of my friends die or anything like that...there's been too many lost that way this past year and a half...

Well now that I've let all that out, I think I'm going to go back to sleep for a bit..or at least to lay back down until Michael calls me so we can go do something....*Boy am I glad I have him, he must be one of the only (if not the only) sane person I have ever met*...oh yeah, and I love him!

--Amy--



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Friday, November 21, 2003

...and alas, I did not go on the trip to Clarion, because once again, my body would not allow it to be so. I got sent home from school today with a massive migraine, I felt like I was dying, but I'm starting to feel a little bit better now...

My Michael came to visit me today before he went to work, it was so romantic- I woke up to him gently kissing me, kinda like sleeping beauty...it was really nice...I can't wait until I get to wake up to that EVERY day for the rest of my life MmMm...I love being in love!

Well I'm still not feeling too hott, so I'm gonna go lay back down and watch a little tv...this is my "loafing" weekend since I'm still trying not to be sick and all....later y'all!

--Amy--

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Thursday, November 20, 2003

Today really sucked, it was my first day back at school since Monday...and boy was it bad. Not only am I still sick, but yesterday I had my big toenail on my right foot removed, completely, and needless to say, OUCH! So I was gimpin' and wheezin' my way around school all day, and MAN did it suck!

Tonight I'm going to get that gorgeous black dress of mine fitted, and then they're going to taylor it just for MEEE Going to get it fitted is about the last thing in the world that I want to do right now, but at least I have no homework tonight, so whatever, I really don't care.

Tomorrow, I leave for Clarion for the weekend with Kelly, Ally, and Carrie....I'm kinda 50/50 on going but whatever, ya know? I'm going to miss Michael the most, that's what's going to kill me....but I get to see him right before I leave and then right when I get home on Sunday, so that'll be cool. This trip would be so much better if I didn't have a fuckin' gimpy foot! Ohhh well, what can ya do?

I gotta get goin' though, so I'll talk to y'all later!

--Amy

p.s. to all the nice people that i know (and the ones i don't know) that said congrats to me, thanks a lot, it really brightened my day!

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Tuesday, November 18, 2003

I really don't have too much to say tonight, mostly because I've been sleeping non-stop for the past 27 hours, trying to get rid of this hideous cold/flu type thing. I'm so sick of being sick....oh well though, whatever.

So tonight, I got a phone call from this guy from admissions at La Roche. He's all like "can I talk to Amy Pennington, please?" when my mom answered the phone...well I have no voice and she's like "yeah you can, but she has to whisper, she has no voice..." lol...anyhow he's telling me about how he was sending emails to the wrong email addy and that he just wanted to inform me that I HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED TO LA ROCHE COLLEGE

so yeah that's the excitement of my life right now, but i have to get going to work on some senior project shit *bleh*

--Amy

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Sunday, November 16, 2003

So far, this weekend has kicked ass. On Friday, I dragged my ass to school and as usual, it was boring and unproductive. After school, Michael met me at my house and we had a lovely reunion (since we hadn't seen each other in like 3 days). We waited for my mom to get home from work so we could give her the gift we got her for her birthday (a koala bear from build-a-bear), and then we headed out to Mike's house. There, we made a quick stop so Michael could grab some warmer clothes and then we went to Northern Lights for dinner @ Talerico's family restaurant. I had an italian hoagie and Michael had beef ravioli, and then it was off to Ambridge for the Freedom VS. Aliquippa play~off game. By that time, it was bitter cold, and the wind was blowing like 32181089213 miles an hour. We got real good seats at the game, but by half time when Freedom was losing 0-30, we left because we were both so cold (and by that time we KNEW the game was a loss for us), and we headed back to my house.

I then ended up grabbing some clothes and we headed back to Mike's for another sleep-over, and it was as usual, wonderful. We stayed up late watching tv and talking, and I fell asleep in his arms, and man was that great. However, when I woke up Saturday morning, I was so sick I could barely move. My throat is the most sore it has ever been before in my life and I can't breathe, and I'm incredibly achy (even still as I type now)....but I roughed it and Michael, Mom, and I went to breakfast and then to my church to work on scenery for the Christmas play that I'm directing. I dunno, it doesn't sound nearly as great as my day was, but even though I was sick all day, Michael took really good care of me, and the day was nice

Now it's 3:30 am on Sunday morning, and I can't sleep even though I'm so loaded up on cold meds that usually make me sleep. I think I'm too achy to sleep because I just can't get comfortable. I'm trying to sleep and everything, it's just not working...so yeah screw it, I'll be up for a while....

--Amy

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Friday, November 14, 2003

20 favorite things to do

1. be with Michael
2. sleep
3. shower
4. swim
5. take pictures
6. sinnggg
7. shop
8. talk online
9. sleep in Michael's arms
10. yawn
11. write poetry
12. dream
13. kiss
14. hug
15. go to football games
16. dance
17. play my saxophone
18. talk on the phone w/Mike
19. play soccer
20. make snowmen

19 things you did this week

1. slept
2. cried
3. played cards
4. went to the mall
5. french kissed
6. had sex
7. played w/my puppy
8. went to school
9. ate
10. danced
11. took a shower
12. got the most gorgeous dress ever
13. drove
14. talked to my son, Fred 
15. got mail
16. laughed
17. wrote a poem
18. burned a cd
19. got tickled

18 people you know

1. Michael
2. Steve
3. April
4. Mark
5. Fred
6. Scott
7. Caitlin
8. Shannon
9. Megan
10. Josh
11. Ted
12. Kate
13. Lauren
14. Erin
15. Christie
16. Amanda
17. Erica
18. Jess

17 bands/singers/groups you like

1. incubus
2. ill nino
3. linkin park
4. 3 days grace
5. 311
6. savage garden
7. daniel beddingfield
8. eamon
9. distorted penguins
10. smile empty soul
11. emerald fusion
12. nelly
13. wheatus tree
14. disturbed
15. third eye blind
16. good charlotte
17. brian mcknight

16 favorite movies

1. Meet the parents
2. finding nemo
3. kangaroo jack
4. Aladdin
5. mulan
6. office space
7. american pie
8. lilo & stitch
9. wizard of oz
10. 2 fast 2 furious
11. fast and the furious
12. remember the titans
13. star wars
14. analyze that
15. city slickers
16. kung pow

15 things you hate

1. people
2. porn
3. lying
4. toes nails
5. cheating
6. being lead on
7. being gossiped about 
8. having no money
9. snakes
10. drugs
11. french food
12. canada
13. war
14. bad teeth
15. pants

14 things you love

1. michael
2. friends
3. bread
4. music
5. internet
6. AIM
7. makeup
8. kissing 
9. cuddling
10. taking pictures
11. holding hands
12. noodles
13. love songs
14. taking bubble baths w/Mike

13 favorite foods

1. asparagus
2. pizza
3. apples
4. SUBWAY!!!!
5. cheeseburgers
6. ice cream
7. cookies
8. asiago cheese
9. bread
10. pears
11. carmels
12. wan ton soup
13. beef and broccoli

12 favorite beverages

1. vanilla coke
2. PEPSI
3. MT. DEW
4. orange Crush
5. milk
6. Gatorade 
7. cherry coke
8. root beer
9. orange juice
10. bottled water
11. red wine
12. CRANBERRY JUICE

11 tv shows

1. perfect proposal
2. Salute your shorts
4. ER
5. cribs
6. Hey Dude
7. Hey Arnold
8. Daria
9. The Nanny
10. Golden Girls
11. south park

10 things you want to do before you die

1. get a tattoo
2. get my belly button pierced
3. get married
4. have kids with mike
5. be an interior designer
6. go on a cruise
7. get old
8. drive a dodge viper
9. Be in a movie
10. run a marathon


7 memories

1. 1st kiss with Mike
2. California
3. Ocean City
4. Band trips to Montreal, Virginia Beach, and DISNEY WORLD!
5. Losing My virginity to Mike
6. falling in love for the first (and only) time
7. sleepovers w/my husband

6 people you find attractive

1. Michael
2. Michael
3. MIke
4. Michael
5. Michael
6. ME

5 favorite places to be

1. my room
2. my car
3. in a Mike's arms
4. in a pool in the summer
5. football games

4 favorite places to eat

1. kountry kitchen
2. kings
3. lone star
4. hot dog shoppe

3 people you love

1. Michael
2. Mom
3. Brooke

2 things you want more than anything

1. To be married to my Michael
2. To get accepted to La Roche 

1 cause you believe in

1. Keeping the promises you make 






















































































































































































































































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Wednesday, November 12, 2003

I just got done reading a very romantic book and now I'm all in a romantic mood so I'm going to let all my romantic feelings out in a letter to the man I love more than anything in the world.

Sweetheart,
    I love you for many things, especially your passions, for they have always been those things which are most beautiful in life; love and friendship and beauty and nature. You have taught me and inspired me, and have supported me in everything that I do, and you will never know how much that has meant to me. Though still many more bad times to come, you have always been right there by my side, encouraging and strengthening me every step of the way. I know it was not easy. It takes a real man to do that, Michael, because it's not an easy thing to do.
     You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side separately, just as I treasure our life together. You have something inside you, Michael, something beautiful. Kindness, that's what everyone sees when they look at you, it's what I see when I look at you now. Kindness. You are the most forgiving and peaceful man I know. God is with you, He must be, for to me, you are an angel.  
     I cherish each passing second with you, and I love you more with each one as well. I'm not sure what I did to get the priveledge of having you in my life, but I'm honestly glad I did whatever it was, for without you I would be void of love.
     We share something that most couples don't get to share over an entire lifetime. What we have is special and rare, and we are beyond measure in luck and happiness because of that. I love you with my whole heart, I always have and I always will.....

Your Future Wife,
Amy Ruth

 

*I ne'er was struck before that hour
With love so sudden and so sweet
His face, it bloomed like a sweet flower
And stole my heart away complete....*









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Tuesday, November 11, 2003

MmMmMm...today was a good day off. I got up at 8 to work on Sr. Project and other various homework things and then I ended up cleaning my abomination of a room...which was wonderful. *Rolls eyes* Okay okay, it wasn't the most fun I've ever had, but at least I wasn't at school, which is always a plus in my opinion.

Tonight I went shopping for a black gown for my Wind Ensemble concert, since Mr. Matchett made our dress code to "concert black" and trust me, it's not easy for me to find a dress that fits me well. See, I have this little problem where my bottom half is at least 5 sizes smaller than my top half due to my enormous boobs  so I've been in search of "the dress" since September. Well, to my relief, after searching places all over Western PA and parts of Ohio, I *FINALLY* found my dress tonight. I hate black with a passion, you have to understand this, and although my feelings for black are as such, I fell in love with this dress. It fits like it was taylored just for me...it's long and flowing, form fitting on the top, and flares out at the bottom, with spaghetti straps. No sequens or anything overly fancy, but it's jet black and has a small strip of black fur around the chest where the straps connect to the dress. (I'll have to post a pic of me in it @ the concert...) Shopping for that dress really really made me excited for Prom. I can't wait...I know what my dress is going to look like and everything...lol...it's just finding MY DRESS that's gonna be the fun part...hehe...

Well I think that's it for now, I'm gonna go get some dinner!

--Amy--

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Monday, November 10, 2003

Today sucked, it was boring and unproductive (at least as far as school went). After school I spent time with Michael *as usual* and we ended up doing some errands and then watching 2 fast 2 furious...and really, that was my night...

No school tomorrow...yay...I guess I'm going to go to sleep now...this is going to be a loooong week and the only time I have to rest is now...

--Amy

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Sunday, November 09, 2003

And with kick-ass days like yesterday, I'm sooo glad to be alive!

Yesterday was the most amazing day EVER. Well,actually, it started late on Friday night, when Michael called me and was like, let's go out...so we did, and eventually ended up at his house, but then he ended up spending the night here, and it was wonderful as usual...we cuddled all night as we slept It was great.

Then on Saturday, we started the day off by going to the bank and then to breakfast with his parents. I was sitting with his dad and Mike was sitting with his mom...and his dad...hugged me. TWICE. It was rather weird because before that, I think the most we've ever touched was to beat each other up...(yeah his dad's cool like that)....it was odd. Very odd. Anyhow, after that we ended up going to Ambridge to see if Mike could get a jersey and I ended up getting a Freedom jersey that fits me like, perfectly lol...it was great...and then we went to Northway Mall...just to piss around until we were supposed to meet his parents at Ross Park Mall. So we met them there and we all walked around and such...I ended up getting new cell phone keys (they're hot pink!) and my favoritest video game ever (Soul Reaver: Legacy of Caine) and I got my mom a build-a-bear Koala for her birthday which is on Friday...so yeah. After the mall, we all went to Lonestar in Cranberry for a nice dinner out...(somehow I always end up getting the steak that gets sent back cuz it's still mooing on my plate....) But ya know, it was still a good night all in all.

So that brings me here today. It's like 8:30 in the morning and my alarm clock is set for 10 but I just can't sleep anymore...so I got up and actually did something productive...*ohh lord, me being productive* something like HOMEWORK....and now I'm gonna go hop in the shower and get ready for church...

--Amy--



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Friday, November 07, 2003

Wow am I bored. Today was moderately better, although not by much. I went to school despite my pounding headache and tried to make the best of it since it is Friday.

I thought Michael was going to call off work so we could go support our boys on the Freedom Football Team, but he chose work over hanging out with me cuz he needs the money for his stupid truck payment, so although I was disappointed majorly, I sat around and did homework most of the night. I got all my bio done though, and that was my major concern, so everything's okay I guess....

I'm so freakin' tired it's unbelievable, and it's only 7:30 pm....I don't know what's been wrong with me lately. I think it's because since I am never headache free, being in pain all the time takes a whole lot out of me. I'm just drained all the time, and I have a feeling I should get used to this because until we find a medication that actually works, I'm gonna be stuck like this....in that constant dream-like state where you're not sure if you're dreaming or if things are actually happening, and if they are actually happening, you don't really care....(kinda like when you go for a few days straight without any sleep).....

Well I guess I'm gonna go curl up in bed for a while and read my book...and maybe just rest before Michael gets off work.

--Amy--



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Thursday, November 06, 2003

Today completely and totally sucked, but really, I don't want to talk about that, so I'll skip to the good part....

Mom and I went shopping at Beaver Valley mall tonight, cuz Michael was working and I had to go to the mall for a school project anyhow, so yeah, why not? I got some pretty hott stuff and it was cool. Mom and I are on good terms again, we both apologized for that huge-ass fight last night and everything's better now.

*Yawns* Wow, I can't believe I'm tired already...it's only 9 and I'm completely drained! I have to stay up though...lol...I can't miss an episode of ER! (How pathetic is that?!)

Well usually I have a whole lot more to say, but really I don't right now...so whatever...

--Amy

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Wednesday, November 05, 2003

Wow today has been a roller coaster of emotions.....

I stayed home one more time today because I was puking my guts out this morning and boy was that fun. *holy sarcasm* I finally feel 100% better though, so I will definitely be back in school tomorrow. I never thought I'd say this, but THANK GOD. I can't stand living here anymore. Anyhow, Michael came over tonight after he got out of class and that was nice. We went book shopping for Sr. Project and all and they didn't have the books I needed so I bought Finding Nemo instead. We came home and watched it and cuddled and it made me a very happy Amy. (of course, Michael ALWAYS makes me a happy Amy)

As soon as he left though, my mother pounced on me and accused me of faking my headaches and told me that she's so stressed out and gets headaches because I have medical problems and all this other shit, and she's all yelling at me and telling me how much I'm a liar....so I told her the next time she needs a ride to the hospital or something, I'd just let her die. (I know that's not true, and I almost feel bad for saying it, but that royally pissed me off because I am DEFINITELY not faking this...) Anyhow, after that, I locked her out of my room and just bawled my eyes out...and then later, she came into my room and acted all nice and was like "ohh goodnight, sweetheart.." I was like "whatever." She then started the "I'm only concerned because I love you"  bullshit, and I told her that I thought it was bullshit and finally she left my room. Whatever, though. Just whatever.

So yeah my mood did a complete 180 from the time Michael left (about 15 minutes ago) till now...and I'm just counting down the days until I'm 18 and can get the hell outta here. I just wanna get away....

--Amy--

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Tuesday, November 04, 2003

I stayed home today because I was puking and I couldn't get out of bed until after 5 o'clock this evening....so yeah, good reason I think to stay home.

Let's see....tonight, my mom drove me to Barnes and Noble because I needed to get some more books for my sr. project so we did that and then went to dinner at the Hot Dog Shoppe....(all the while my head was killing me) so yeah that was a whole lot of fun... I also downloaded Dead AIM tonight, where you can change people's screen names on your list to say their actual names or whatever you want it to call them, so I converted my whole list into people's real names, first and last. Boy that took a long time, lol...

I'm hoping to see/talk to Michael sometime soon but if not, I'm sure he'll call when he gets off work...in the meantime, I'm going to go start to work on taking notes from the books I got tonight (that is if I can stay awake long enough to, I'm so tired)...wish me luck...

--Amy--

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Monday, November 03, 2003

Yesterday was great...I spent the majority of the day at LaRoche College which is absolutely the college of my dreams...I cannot wait to go there (assuming I get accepted, which I should be finding out within the next few days).....it's a wonderful place, and it's much smaller than my high school is right now, so that'll be a nice change, to just finally be some place that's relatively small and personal....

*yawns* Yeah, I'm tired, but of course, that might have to do with the fact that I'm going on 3 hours of sleep and have been for the past 24 hours or so....that DAMN medication that I take due to the fact that my brain doesn't make like 3128318031 chemicals that it's supposed to keeps me up at night...so I'm like a living zombie....although if you know me, you know that I can go on like nothing for weeks...but then like one day I just crash and I'm completely regenerated for another week or so on nothing...it's weird. I think I'm inhuman.

I drove to school today cuz I had to stay after...and boy do I hate having to be alert and actually awake at 6:45 am. *I suddenly remember now why I don't drive to school* School was boring and unproductive, although I did get an "A" on my math test (yay for me!) Which most of you know, is a very big deal since I'm the world's worst math student. Hmm....I stayed after school for like 15 minutes for this scholarship program I'm in...I was actually kind of dreading it to begin with because we (me and 3 other girls) have to go around to the elementary schools in our district and do presentations on drugs and alcohol and such....but I think because of the people I'm working with, not only will I make new friends but I *gulp* MIGHT actually end up respecting little kids. (Note: "Respecting" is a whooooole lot different than "Liking"....)

After school, I spent the evening at Michael's house, helping him to wire his truck for new audio equipment. I did a lot of the work (although he did some too)....we got it all right and stuff, and you can't even tell that there's extra wires there cuz we did such a good job hiding it! Hooray for us! Lol...

Well I feel like I'm dying so I think I'm going to sleep now.
-Amy-




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Sunday, November 02, 2003

So yesterday was in a word, AMAZING. The whole day went wonderfully. I spent it with Michael...and I got a *new* anniversary ring....(cuz my old one was almost worn the whole way thru on the band).....We did indeed end up going to the Freedom play~offs against Shenango (@ Shenango) Which is weird, because at our play~offs at least, we're on neutral territory, and generally, I'd say that one team having the "Home-Field Advantage" definitely ISN'T neutrality, but whatever. As we were walking in, I heard a voice from directly behind Michael and me, and they were saying
"Hey that's the bitch (something about me stealing Michael from his ex *I didn't quite catch it all*)...."
So aside from the fact that I was absolutely petrified that I was going to get the shit beat out of me for being with MY boyfriend the entire game (oh and the fact that I got stuck sitting next to a girl I absolutely HATE), the game was wonderful! Mike and I kept watching our friend, Fred, who's a junior at Freedom, and we constantly were like "oh look at Fred!" haha, we decided that he doesn't need to know it, but we "adopted" him and now we're his "game parents" lol....we go to cheer on our little boy! Anyyyhow, Freedom beat the piss out of Shenango (home-field advantage, my ass!) even with the Refs that were obviously favoring Shenango....Freedom 37, Shenango 16! (And Shenango didn't even score til the 4th quarter!) hahahaha! Way to go Freedom! Next week's game is at South Park...wherever the fuck that is, lol!

Well I gotta get going...I'm spending the day at a LaRoche College open-house day. I'm so excited, I have yet to hear back from them, but it's so my number one choice college....wish me luck!

--Amy--




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