Life Sucks, Once Again...

Ya know what I don't understand? My mom keeps bitching at me to go out and make some girl friends and so when I do she dicks my plans over and makes me look like I'm blowing everyone off. For example, tonight I was supposed to go out with a whole group of my friends for Laura's 18th birthday and she won't let me because the roads are WET. They're not snowy, icy, no they're fucking WET because it's just RAINING and she's like "oh but they'll freeze and you'll die..." Trust me, bitch, I'm not lucky enough to die. God damnit she pisses me off....

On the good side, I have had enough free time to get my tear-drop effect to work again so now everything's okay with that. *Rolls eyes* Oh yay, my only friend- the computer.

What a fucking shitty life.

Bye Bye, Spring Break....

Oh yeah, it's official, we have like 1 day and a weekend for spring break now cuz guess what? School was cancelled again today. They have NEVER in the history of my 13 years at that school cancelled it this much ((except in 1993 when we had a blizzard))...but this is nowhere near a blizzard. Sure the whole world around us is just one solid sheet of ice, but oh well, I guess I really didn't want to have school today anyhow, so it's all right.

*Yawns* I'm really really bored, but at least I'm here by myself. There's nothing worse than having a day off from school and someone is home with me and they keep annoying the shit out of me, ya know, making me get up early and such. Haha, yeah it's 12:30 in the afternoon and I just got up...lol

CALLING ALL DREAM ANALYZING-PEOPLE:
I had the weirdest dream last night. It was about me and my friends Kayt, Laura, Melissa, and Shannon...and we were all getting ready to go to prom. Well, for some reason, we skipped our hair appointments and such and didn't even get dressed until we got to the school. It was really hott and humid that day and we were all sweaty and un-done up, and no one had anything on them. No purse, no camera, no makeup, no deodorant...nothing. And our dates came separately from us...in a pick up truck. But it wasn't just us doing this- like everyone that went to prom was getting dressed in the auditorium and gym and doing their own hair and stuff- and they had like a billion towncars (1 per couple) to take us down to Heinz Field...I dunno, and a bunch of random people were there - the librarian at our school, a few people from my church, just random people that I guess could've been chaperones, but they appeared to be going there because it was "their prom" and stuff...odd...

HmMm...it seems as though I need a shower. Mike's coming over after 1 and we're going to lunch and then tonight I'm probably going out to dinner with Kayt, Laura, Melissa, Chris, and Matt....that'll be fun...*smiles* Later!

OOO TEMPLATE!!

Czech out my kick ass template...*thanks to Aimee* for making it all possible. For some reason though, with this template, the tear-drop effect isn't working right, so I'm going to have to tweak it to get it to work. No problem though, I'm starting to get the hang of this thing.

I didn't go to school today due to sickness from a headache ((again)). I started feeling a little bit better though and my mom dragged me to get my prom dress fitted so they can start the alterations. It was kinda fun but it took forever cuz there's like 8 layers to it. *Yeah, it's slightly poofy* Then I went to the grocery store with my mom to get some veggie burgers- cuz I'm vegetarian now. It's fun! They have just about everything for vegetarians- hot dogs, "chicken" fingers, burgers- all made out of veggies. It's nice.

When we finally got home, Mike was there. It was a very pleasant surprise- he had called off. Soo we spent all evening together and I really enjoyed it. I needed that extra day with him....*smiles*

Hmm...I think that's about it...the weather is getting increasingly bad, so who knows what the school situation is going to be tomorrow....let's hope for none of it....

New Backgrounds and HTML Coding...

As you can see, I took the demonic angel off my background and started experimenting with paintshop pro and pictures of equally depressing things. I personally enjoy this picture because it represents a darker sense of what it is to cry. It shows the human characteristics in a vampire (the ability to cry) and although a vampire is known for its ruthless acts, the vulnerability shown by this picture really makes me think. Everyone is weak at some point, everyone has cried....the beauty of this, I believe is demonstrated in this picture. Besides, it's a nice change...and I'm waiting for Aimee & Kayt to make me a template, so I guess this'll work out in the meantime....

So I'm learning HTML. I think I'm coming along great, considering I started yesterday and I already made my first program *see the tears falling on my blog*. Perfect with my new theme of "The Tears Of Demonic Innocence". I love it!! I'm so excited, eventually, I'll be either on my own site or be hosted on someone else's site, and I won't have to rely on the motime things to do the HTML for me. Although, I'm getting the hang of templates. Not quite publishing material just yet, but we'll see.

I'm going to go lay down now, my head is killing me....

Man Oh Man Tonight Was Fun....

Michael came over at like 3:30 ish and we went to Cranberry to do a little shopping. We ended up at Best Buy first. Damn I love that store, LoL...I got a set of 4 cd's that are interior design software things, I've been playing with them for like an hour now, and they're real kick ass. Gotta love it, they were only $15 for all 4!! I dunno, I was pretty happy about that, considering that's what I'm going to go to college for in the fall...Hmm, and after Best Buy, we went to Quaker Steak and Lube for dinner *all you can eat wing night*...We actually didn't eat as much as we usually do, but I think that had to do with the fact that neither of us were really in the mood for chicken, although we didn't realize that until after we were already there. Helpful, huh? We left there and went to the dollar tree, the best store EVER created. LOL. Got some scrap-booking stuff, it's cheap there and that makes me happy. I'm making my mom a scrap-book of my life as a mother's day/graduation present...I dunno, I figure she's put up with me these past 13 years in that god-forsaken school, she deserves a little something too...and trust me, I've been working my ass off on that scrap-book. I think she'll like it though. Anyway, back to tonight...after the dollar store, we went back to my house and played mario for like 2 hours...that was fun...and then we cuddled and watched tv for another 2 hours or so. Time seemed to go slow, which was definitely a good thing in this case. I love spending time with him, and it seems like we never really get to anymore, with his job and all...*sigh* oh well, not his fault...

But yeah, tonight was great.

I think that's about it for now, I'll write again later!

Ohh Another Snow-Day....

Yup, it's definitely another snow-day for me. It was raining ice and sleet last night and apparently it made enough difference to have our school cancelled for the day...*lucky us*...

I'm working on learning HTML and FTP so I can buy a web domain, I dunno, ever since Kayt did it, it seems so appealing to me. I've been thinking about doing it for a while, but since I really don't know too much HTML, it's hard to do that. I think maybe I'll go to Barnes and Noble and get a book on HTML, maybe that'll help. I dunno...with as many snow days as we've been having, maybe it'll do me good to learn a marketable skill...LOL..

Michael didn't call me last night, apparently he tried and couldn't get through because VERIZON SUCKS. So I was up until 3:30 am biting off my nails and shaking because I thought he was dead, and then I finally got ahold of him on AIM. ((THANKFULLY)) He's alive and fine by the way....

*Twitch* I'm so bored...I think I'll go take a shower....

That's all for now, kidds.....

No School For Me...

*Ugh* I can't write for long, but I didn't go to school today, due to the fact that I couldn't move my neck and I had a 103.4 temperature...*sniffles* yeah I'm not doing too hott...oh well, what can ya do?

Hope all is well with e'eryone else!

Booooooredom....

Okay, since I'm stuck here all alone, I think I'll update you on today and yesterday.

Yesterday, Michael and I celebrated our 1 year 7 month anniversary that is actually today due to the fact that he had to work today. He picked me up in the morning and brought me to breakfast and then gave me the most wonderful present- a whole bunch of beautiful pictures of me and him, that I had almost forgotten about. Then we did homework together and headed out to go to dinner. We went to the Olive Garden, which is a very special place for us, it's where we had our first BIG date, on our 1 month anniversary, and although I'd known him for years prior to that night, I was more nervous that you could ever imagine. We had an hour long wait or so, but it was all worth it in the end. He got chicken alfredo with a coke, and I got cheese ravioli with an orange beverage that normally comes with alcohol but I asked for it without any since I'm under age. I still ended up with an alcoholic one and by the time the meal was over, I was preetttty close to drunk. (Kayt and Laura know how little it takes to get me there )...so then we went to Ross Park Mall and I tried to maneuver around the mall all tipsy...haha that was funnn....

Today, I got up and went to church, then mom and I went to breakfast at Kountry Kitchen, then it was off to go shopping. Kohl's was having a huge ass sale (hehe ASS-SALE) and I got some pants and shirts...hehe and really cute undies......then we went to Linens & Things to get mom a blanket, then to TJ MAXX where I got more pants....*sigh* It was a good day over-all.

Now I'm waiting for Mike to call so we can go eat and I can retrieve my belongings from his house....

5 Months Seems Like Forever.....

But it's really not. Sadly, I have come to the realization *yes, it 100% sunk in now* that in 5 months, the people that matter most in my life and I will be coming to a separation. Sure, we'll talk on AIM occasionally, but the only true things to talk about will be memories. Some people are going to college together like Kayt and Laura, Erica and Manda....but then others, like me, will be going alone, to room with complete strangers. It's hard and rather sad to go through this....because I know after June 4, 2004, my life will change forever. I will change forever. My daily routine will be gone and my comfort zone will be abolished. I'm scared, and excited, but most of all sad.

I don't want to lose the people that I hang out with, and as much as we say "we'll always be friends" the reality is that the odds aren't very much in our favor. I'm excited to meet new people and have new experiences, and finally to be an adult, but with that fades the friendships and memories of the past. I'm so scared that one day, I won't even recognize my old friends anymore. *sigh*

I guess in all of this though, there is a light. No matter what, the people I am friends with now will always be a part of me- because even though I may turn into a different person, without them first shaping me, I wouldn't be who I'm going to be...if that makes sense.

Oh well, I gotta run....**SHOPPING TIME**

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, MICHAEL! I LOVE YOU!

Yess, my precioussssss.....

Ahh! That damn Hobbit book is taking over my mind! *Ugh* I have to read it for British Literature and everytime I open the book I just want to shoot myself in the face....it is the most drawn out, long, boring, dry piece of shit literature I have ever encountered in my life. And I read. A lot.

HmMm...what happened today? Let's see here....oh yeah, we finally had a full day of school (7:34 am - 2:29 pm), although of all days, T O D A Y has been the coldest all week. At noon (the hottest part of the day), it was 4 degrees fahrenheit, with a windchill of -15 degrees, making it feel as though it was close to 20 below zero. And they didn't even give us a damn 2 hour delay. *Bleh* Which reminds me, does anyone else from Seneca remember in like 2nd grade how they gave us a 3 hour delay??? Why don't they do that anymore? L O L

As far as school went, it was long, boring, and highly uneventful. I think the highlight of my day was coming home to find Michael at my busstop, there to save me from the infinite cold.

Tonight was really lame too. I went to dinner with my mother and then we went to Rite Aid. That was only so I could talk to Shannon and get hair dye...yeah, it's sad, I'm only 17.5 years old and I'm already going gray. I was actually planning on stopping the whole dyeing my hair thing, but now I am going gray, so I have not many options. Well, I suppose I could just let it go gray, but I don't think I want to go to college with gray hair. Not my big thing in life, thanks. *sigh* Mike's going gray too. Sure, he's close to 20, but by the time we get married, we'll look like we're 80! Haha, just my luck.

Weeeeeellllll.....I guess I better go wash the dye outta my hair before it seeps into my head and kills the few brain cells I have left....

OoOo OoOo, and just for your entertainment purposes, here's a picture of my dog, Snoopy that I took with my new digi cam:



























Cute, huh?

Oh The Boredom Of It All....

Yeah, I finally realized that I can use more than 5 colors to type an entry in and now I'm loving the colors. LOL. If you look at all my other entries (with the exception of the past few days) everything's been in like red and blue. Oh but ladies and gentlemen, I have discovered the GREENS too! Haha....

Today got a lot better when I got home...school just has a way of putting me in a bad mood. Thank God it's my last year at Seneca. It's the worst place, ever. And if you'd like to argue that point, try me, I can guarantee that it's much worse than any place you've ever been. Which reminds me....

Thiis is what someone created in light of our school. Yes, the actual architecture for the school was based off of one made for a prison. This is the actual sign in front of our buildings (except the "federal prison" part says "High School" in reality).... But if we make things like this, just imagine the horror of it all! LOL...

Yeah, well I'm bored, but I really have nothing else to say/do...so I guess I'm gonna go...
--Amy

I knew today would be bad when....

When I woke up this morning, we had a 2 hr delay. That's all well and good, meaning I didn't have to get up til 8 and school starts at 9:30 am. Yay. Wrong. I was still running late and slipped on ice on the way to the busstop. When I got to school, I realized that I had left my keys in my room, so thankfully Heather had her cell phone and I called home. The rest of the day was just bad things. Lunch came around and my entire lunch table abandoned me...boy was that fun...except for Chris. *Thanks Chris*

Up until now I thought that it'd be bad going to college and not knowing anyone....but after today and seeing how cliques can hurt people, I can't WAIT to get away from that shit....

*FINALLY* We had school....

Okay, so we had a 2 hr delay, but getting out of the house is getting out of the house....*grins*

Kayt came back to school today....that was a wonderful thing...I missed her soo much! And then today after school, we contemplated slug sex together, that too was beautiful. LoL! *sigh* life is good.

There's this guy at school. He used to be my friend, but lately he's been wanting to be much more, and I don't particularly like it. [He'll remain nameless throughout this entry.] I started hanging out with him a few years ago at school and it was okay, everything was going well. He was in relationships before and I helped him with them cuz for some reason, he's not the best at keeping relationships or finding people that keep him interested (or stay interested in him). As of late, he has been in this relationship and is completely miserable...and is basically only in that relationship because he feels as though he can't get anyone else to be in a relationship with him. He's been unnaturally close to me recently, and has expressed thoughts of being in a relationship - namely - marriage with me, even though he knows about my future plans with Michael. *To get married*. I must admit, at first I thought it was a joke, and then I found it flattering, but now I'm highly uncomfortable with it, and if this behavior persists, I don't know how I'm going to react. It's rather confusing..but mostly irritating....the worst part? He's ultra sensitive so if I try to express my feelings on it, he'll get really upset and most likely never talk to me again....*What Do I Do?!*

There's a similar situation with that Ken guy at church. He's been getting creepier and creepier. I just got done reading this novel about a stalker and how this guy is obsessed with this girl and eventually tries to kill her boyfriend, Mike...*her name is Julie in the novel, but she reminds me so much of me, it's scary, oh and her boyfriend is Mike...* And Ken kinda reminds me of Richard. *The Stalker*...It's just that he's un-necessarily nice and that freaks me out with anyone, but guys in particular. Not to mention, he just about killed me in the middle of choir practice a few weeks back because I'm wearing a ring that Michael got me. Yes, it's a promise ring (aka pre-engagement)...but still, no need to get hostile:
Me: (sitting in a pew, minding my own business)
Ken: (walks up to me, looks as though he's about to say something nice, glances at my hand)
Me: ????
Ken: "What is this?! (Points to my hand) I don't talk to you for 2 weeks and you have the nerve to go off and get engaged to another man????!!!"
*At this point, he's S C R E A M I N G in the middle of the sanctuary of my church...*
Me: (confused and bewildered) "Uhh...uhh..."
Ken: "God, can't you just stop toying with my emotions?...."
The following Sunday before church, he approached me again, this time a little nicer, but still rather creepy:
Ken: "Amy, can we talk?"
Me: "Uh, yeah sure...what do you need?"
Ken: "I'd like to apologize for what I said on Wednesday. It's just....just so hard to see the woman you're in love with become engaged to another...oh you know...well, actually, I suppose you don't..."
(Increasing hostility in tone)
Me: "Oh, it's okay...I didn't mean to hurt you...."
Ken: (screams) "I JUST CAN'T DO THIS, I'M SORRY!"
(Leaves in almost a jogging pace)
-Yeah, c-r-e-e-p-y. It's like, hold up there, killer, I didn't mean to get your fur in a bunch. LoL...geez, what's wrong with people today?....

*sigh*

Sometimes, when I'm feeling upset, or emotional, full of any emotion really...I write things, songs, poetry, it doesn't matter....

Tonight I wrote a song for Michael. This past week has been really hard for the two of us, not because of strain in our relationship. If anything, we're doing better than ever...but this has a lot to do with outside things, things we can't control...and he's been 110% there for me. Without his support, I wouldn't have been able to make it through this...

This song is called "Angel In Disguise"

[gently, slightly,
the breeze plays upon my face
i open my eyes to a distant glow
realizing i'm looking at you]

you stir as you sleep
a sigh you breathe
the glow becomes stronger
and i know

you're an angel in disguise,
you only show it when you're sleeping
the only time you let down your guard
is now
you're an angel in disguise,
to help me start the healing...
you're an angel, my angel, in disguise....

your kindess made me question before
[no man on earth could be this understanding]
your arms- they're always open
your love is always burning
i never thought it possible
but i know

you're an angel in disguise,
you only show it when you're sleeping
the only time you let down your guard
is now
you're an angel in disguise,
to help me start the healing...
you're an angel, my angel in disguise....

unconditional you've shown me
a love that's never ending
a friendship full of passion
a life that's worth living
you made me who i am
and that's who i want to be
i only question this-
why did you choose me?

[you're an angel in disguise,
you only show it when you're sleeping
you're my angel in disguise,
sometimes i think i'm dreaming]

you're an angel in disguise,
you only show it when you're sleeping
the only time you let down your guard
is now
you're an angel in disguise,
to help me start the healing...
you're an angel, my angel in disguise....

**Michael- I whole-heartedly believe that you are an angel sent from heaven just for me. How or why, I will probably never know. I just want you to realize how much you really mean to me...and that I appreciate every little thing you've done for me, not only this past week...but as long as I've known you. You're my best friend in the entire world, and I don't know what I'd do without you...I love you, I always have and I always will....**

Y U C K: Snow Day, Take 2

I don't want to be stuck here, cooped up in this house again for the second consecutive day. I feel like I'm being punished for something, even though I'm not...I mean, I was actually FORCED by self-boredom to clean my room (which wasn't necessarily a bad thing) but still, come on!

Ugh, the snow just keeps falling...and falling...and falling....
         Don't get me wrong, I LOVE snow, but it's just preventing me from doing anything/going anywhere, and it's getting old...on the other hand, I think Mike's coming over, which'll be fun...maybe to sled a little...or just to snuggle...mMmMm...fun!

Welllll, I guess I better go get a shower and all that fun stuff....

Wow, sorry I haven't written in like almost a week, but I've been having serious computer problems...*sigh*

My life has been fairly uneventful though, so don't worry, you really haven't missed much. On Friday, I went to Pittsburgh to hang out with Mike and Mark *our mutual friend*. We went to all sorts of places...music stores, mostly. We first went to Eides in the strip district, that was a good time. If you ever get a chance to go there, I suggest it, really I do. It's all cd's and tee-shirts, ya know, band stuff on the first floor, the second floor is all movies and books, and the basement is every comic book you could ever imagine - accompanied by every action figure ever made. It is definitely a fun place. Then we ended up in the South-Side at a store called Slackers. Interesting store. Right before we went in, this big black guy stopped us to talk to us...he was so funny. He went to shake Mark's hand, but Mark walked away too quickly, so I shook it instead...LOL...good times, good times. By the time we actually got home (around 11), the streets were completely covered in snow. We had to drive in 4 wheel drive the entire way home...that was fun though.

Mike ended up spending the night that night and we went up to SRU on Saturday to study together. *Smiles*

Sunday was a bore, church and that was about it.

Today, I had no school- it was cancelled due to "inclement weather" so it said on our school's tv channel. Not that I'm complaining. I just hope the make-up day isn't the Monday after Valentine's Day here in a few weeks. We always have that day off, and there better be no exception this year!

That's about it for now....I'll probably be writing again frequently, now that my computer seems to have calmed down a bit..LOL...

Okay, 2 fairly amusing things happened today....

Fairly Amusing Thing # 1- I caught someone in the biggest lie I have ever heard. This stupid girl who's like best friends with a teacher lied to me and said she didn't turn someone in for something....when EVERYONE knows it's true and she's already admitted it to other people. I dunno, I just find it amusing because she pretends to be this uptight goody-goody Christian girl that wouldn't do anything and then she lies about that...oh and she cheats on her boyfriend.

Fairly Amusing Thing #2- I was walking to the bus stop and I hear this thumping. Well, I look down on the ground and see this rabbit. It sees me looking at it and starts getting spastic. Next thing I know the damn rabbit takes off and *WHAM* smacks head first into my shin. Now, rabbits may look all cute and cuddly when they are just sitting there, but when they're going like 34802802340 miles an hour into your leg, you tend to notice.

Other than that, today was highly uneventful.
LOL

Oh so happy once again....(well aside from some underlying factors)....

Yesterday was a day off and today was a half day at school....*sigh* life is good. I'm really looking forward to the start of a new semester (tomorrow)...new classes, new faces, and yet some stay the same. It's a beautiful thing, really.

This 3 day weekend has been wonderful. It started on Friday when I went to Eat 'n Park with Jesse and Erica and then Saturday I fully described a few entries ago...Sunday was all right, rather pointless, but fun nonetheless...and Sunday night I spent the night at Mike's and we went to the mall all day on Monday. (And if you know me at all, you know I'm a mall-a-holic...I could LIVE at a mall and be happy forever)

Tonight'll be interesting. I Shannon just decided that I'm on costume crew with her for the all-school musical, *State Fair*, so I guess I'm doing that. It might be a good thing though- teach me a little independence- and since I can't even stand in a lunch line alone, that might just be a good thing. It'll also fill my time up so I don't have to sit around and think about how much I miss Mike when he's working and such. See? Not necessarily bad things, right?

OoOo OoOo, I think I also landed a job for the summer- and it's only a summer job, so I won't have to worry about quitting during the school year (for college in the fall) ! Yeah, it's painting and maintenence, but I'll be getting paid about $8 and hour and working from 7-3 all week and no weekends. Basically like going to school but getting paid for it! AND it won't be the same thing every day....*Grins* Just the kind of job I've been looking for!

*sigh* Oh yes, life is very, V E R Y good right now...
--Amy

I need to let this out. And to anyone that this pertains to, consider this your warning.

I don't entirely know what it is that makes me hate people so much, but I do know that malicious intent and hypocrisy are two of the major contributing factors. I cannot stand when someone says one thing and goes and directly does the complete opposite. Or when someone takes delight in ruining someone else's life for no apparent reason. This seems to be happening a lot as of recent, and quite frankly it's obnoxious. 

I can't honestly say that I've ever wanted to be close friends with a teacher. Now, in my opinion, a "teacher" is someone who does just that- teach. It's more than a title, it's a profession, and when in the educational setting, that is the one and only thing that a TEACHER should be to a student. A student-teacher relationship should consist of questions and answers about the particular specialty of that teacher's knowledge. For example, a history teacher should be asked about the Civil War, and a band teacher about music. Nothing more, nothing less. Unfortunately, however, in today's LIBERAL society, where everyone has to feel good and no one's self esteem can be let down (which is another tragedy in my opinion), teachers often forget that they are there to teach and only to teach. This is when the student-teacher relationship has been crossed to a closer, more intimate thing, which should not ever happen. When it does happen, and believe me, it does, it only results in favoritism, and the ruination of innocent people's lives. Furthermore, when such an incident occurs, I am appauled at the fact that the teachers' union will cover for any teacher that crosses that line of respect, thus making it next to impossible for any student to win an argument that was precipitated by the teacher and their now very close student friend.

This is what makes me hate people, and especially people involved in any education system.

You cannot trust a single soul in a place where you're supposedly safe from all harm- school. You cannot exercise your constitutional rights of freedom of speech and the right to practice whatever religion you so choose. You cannot speak your mind, you cannot assemble peacefully- and, in some places, you can't even pledge your loyalty to your own country. It makes me sick to see an education system like America once had go down the drain all because teachers no longer realize that their role should be authority, not friend.

I know someone out there knows exactly what I am talking about and whom I am referring to. To anyone who is "friends" with a teacher while still being that teacher's pupil: What you are doing is very, very wrong. I cannot express my extreme demise for such behavior, but know this. What you have done, are doing, and will do to people that you know, and some that you do not because of your relationship with a teacher will make you the most hated amongst your peers. You will then have to stew in your own anguish as all other students turn their backs on you. Enjoy your friendly time while you can because that teacher is not always going to be there for you, and that school building won't always be your safe-house. Do not walk alone, do not ever think that you are safe. As sure as you become comfortable, someone will do to you what you have already done to ruin someone else's life.

Today was a well-deserved day of NOTHINGNESS (<--is that even a word?!):

  Michael came over at about 11 am, and we went out to breakfast with his parents at Kountry Kitchen (as usual on a Saturday). After that, Mike and I headed up to his dorm, where I met his roomate, Steve. He says my name so cool in his Australian accent: "I-ME" is how he says it, LOL...we ended up eating at Rocky's for a snack...and then headed back down to Cranberry.
  Boy did the roads suck. Something good came of that though...well, I'm not sure if it's good or bad, but I definitely went from scared to death of sliding in a vehicle to addicted to that adrenaline rush when it happens. [Good=I'm not scared, Bad=I LIKE that feeling] 
  On the way to Cranberry, we stopped at Burger King to get coffee...and I ran into Heather. She wasn't on the clock yet and wanted me to go with her to get gas cuz she was scared of the shitty roads, so I said yeah, and me and her went to get gas real quick. Mike sat in BK and ate pie, so I think he was happy. After we got back, Mike and I left and Heather started work...
  Eventually, we ended up back at Mike's house...and watched "Enough" starring Jennifer Lopez, which is actually good. (And I definitely hate J-Lo, so you gotta know it must actually be good, hehe)....
   Shortly after that, we left and came back to my house. Which is when the fun began. Picture it...it's sleeting at 10:30 pm. It's pitch-black and there's like a foot of snow on the ground....PACKING SNOW. Oh yes, snowball fight. No, this wasn't just a fight. It was a snowball WAR. I hadn't ever had a snowball fight like that before. This was dodge under snow-covered vehicles, take cheap shots, all-out war-fare going on here. And the best part is, we had to be silent because it was so late. Man did I get my ass kicked. I was doing real good at the dodging part until he got one lucky shot in....smacked me right in the chest...and it went downhill from there. This went on for about 1/2 an hour and then we were so exhausted from trying to run/throw in the heavy snow that we came inside and just layed down for an hour. But damn, that was fun!
  So yeah, that was my day in a nutshell...(how did it get into this nutshell?!) Haha, sorry, I had to...
--Amy

Thank God It's Friday....

After such a long week of ups and (mostly) downs, I'm so happy it's Friday. I'm so sick of the drama and bullshit...the best part is- this is a 3 day weekend. Well, 3 and 1/2 day weekend...*sigh of relief* I'm just emotionally and physically drained....and a break is VERY well-deserved.

Haha, apparently Mike got his Australian roomate yesterday. The kid seems to be crazy. His name is Steve and he's only seen snow one time before this. He fucking brought a surf board to SRU with him. -There's like 3 inches of snow on the ground, and the nearest ocean is HOURS away in another state- And this kid brings a surf board. Haha, what a weird-ass.

I'm in high spirits for the moment, and let's hope it stays that way all weekend. I'm going shopping for jeans and shoes with mom sometime here pretty soon, so I guess I'm gonna go get a shower and get ready....
--Amy 

*Sigh* I just get so sick of the high school drama and bullshit....I just have to keep telling myself..."This time next year, you'll be in college, away from all this crap..." And God, I can't wait...

I just get so fed up with listening to the "he said, she said" stuff. Especially when it comes to the teachers. Ya know, back in the day, teachers and students had nothing to do with one another outside of the classroom, which is the way it should have remained. Now, students come to classes to visit the teachers and fratronize during periods of the day in which they do not have classes with particular teachers. Thus, making it much easier to become *teacher's pets* and making the favoritism even worse.

I wish just for once I could go back into the 60's or so, and see when teachers could beat a subordinate kid for acting up. I wish I could go back and see when respect was still around, when authoritative figures were that and only that. None of this "I'm friends with Mr. So and So" shit. There is a fine line between caring about your students and becoming their best friends, and this time, it has been crossed, and in this case, has caused a very close friend of mine much pain. This needs to be put to an end.

Does anyone else feel this way? Or am I all alone once again?.....

Okay, I guess I'll actually write right now...

I'm not entirely sure what posesses people to do the things they do. Why would you intentionally ruin someone's life; especially someone who you don't even know?! I just don't get the cruelty of the act, and I guess I never will.

*sigh* nothing overly great has been happening lately- to me or anyone else I know. I feel so bad for everyone, life's just not fair...this is such bullshit.

Well I hope everything is going okay with everyone else...

--Amy

I am more than angry right now. I can't really say why, but I might not be using my blog as much, at least for a while. I'm sorry...

                  I will be back though, I promise.

*BLEH* Today totally sucked. I ended up wearing a pint of apple juice (and later a pint of milk) and it looked like I pissed myself, and I had to walk around school all day like that. Also, I fell down an entire flight of stairs at school, and when I attempted going back up that flight, I fell UP them too. Then a whole bunch of bad stuff happened to my Kayt, but we won't get into that, and it really made me sad...and then I got smacked in the face with a door, shut my hand in my locker, had a headache, and got my arm scratched to hell by my own nails. *sigh* Definitely not my day.

Tonight was a bit better, not much though. The best part was that I spent it with Michael...he moved back to school today though, and that sucked. I also can't seem to find a ring in my size, which also sucks. We were both forced to eat dinner with his parents and their friends, and really, I just wasn't in the mood for being teased by old people...but I suffered through it anyhow...then I got something really sharp in my only functioning eye and it made me cry...and see all blurry. So yeah, I'm really not having a good day, in fact today is one of the worst days yet. Definitely the worst day of 2004 so far. Yeah, I realize it's only 2 weeks into the year, but still...how shitty is that!
--Amy

School was less that thrilling today...but I turned in my senior project paper...FOR GOOD. No more high school research papers again. EVER. *does a little dance*

Let's see here...I'm writing now because I probably won't have another minute to myself. I have to start homework here in like 2 minutes and then Shannon's coming over...and then I'm going to drag her with me to pick up an ink cartridge for my printer, then it'll be off to choir practice at 7...which means I'll be home around 8, but chances are that I'll more than likely have the majority of my homework to do then...*sigh* What a hectic night! (But fun all at the same time)

I guess I better go...I'll write more in-depth tomorrow, I promise!
Hope all is well with everyone!
--Amy